Anonymous Story: I Was A Kid

I was raped by my stepfather when I was 6–13, until 13 years old. But unfortunately, I didn’t know how to tell my family. When we were both alone in the house while my mom was working, I would be totally scared. Until one day, I tried to kill myself. I couldn’t face it anymore. I blamed myself for not being able to protect myself. I was a kid, I never knew that it was wrong. It was sex, I never knew until I discovered it by myself.

Then, when I turned 18, a stranger raped me. It happened again. But this time I lodged a police report, even though I knew it could harm me and my family. But I made the decision, after a long time, the police discovered everything. They asked me if I wanted to jail him, and it was possible, but I had no courage to do that. I just made a police report about the stranger, and yes, he got jailed for 30 years.

When my family found out everything that my stepfather did to me, they were speechless, but my mom blamed me for all of it. She didn’t even believe that her husband could do such. She keeps blaming me. But yeah, until today, I survived alone. No one knew about my past, I struggled by myself. I faced it alone.

But I’m still having some traumatic symptoms. I can’t stay in the dark. I’m too scared. And sometimes I will cry and cry because it’s too much for me. I can’t change my destiny. Can you imagine every night he asked that of me and did for 8 years and nobody noticed it? I was too dumb to voice it out. It’s too late.

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