Anonymous Story: I Just Went With It

My aunt’s friend used to touch my penis when I was 9 and she did other things to me. So she would watch me when my aunt went to work and what not. She started coming into the bathroom after my shower and would say she needed to help me dry off and I was like, ok. I didn’t really think much of it and she would make me lay on the bed naked and air dry. I didn’t think anything of it at the time. So, after a few times of doing that, she made a comment about me having a decent size penis for my age. And all of a sudden, she started sucking on me. Yeah, my penis wasn’t even big but she put it in her mouth. I didn’t know what to do then. I lay there and she would say things like I love this little penis in my mouth, imma get this little thing hard.

I didn’t know it was wrong at the time. I just went with it. This happened at least once a week for a few months. Then she let her friend come over a couple of times as well and her friend who was female asked to see me naked so my babysitter made me get nude in front of her. She let her friend watch me get sucked on. I was uneasy about it. I felt like something was off about it

But I didn’t know what to do. I didn’t want to tell because I thought I would get in trouble. She let her friend watch me get sucked on. I was suffering from withdrawal. I felt like I was horny all the time at a very young age. I was yearning for older women to see me naked after that. I couldn’t help my urges after that. I was masturbating at like 10 years old.

Her friend who watched me get sucked on also joined in. She would make me take my socks off and run her fingers through my toes. She would ask to see my asshole and would touch on my asshole. Her friend also would play with my asshole. After a few times, it stopped hurting. I had no idea women licked asshole before then. My sitter would suck me while the friend would suck and play with my asshole. After that, I would think that maybe I was gay. I started trying to play with my own ass. I had the urge to ask someone to play with my ass and everything and I was like 12. When I was younger, I would try to have older women see me naked. I would purposely leave my door open a bunch of times. I used to masturbate while fingering my ass when I was younger and everything. I didn’t understand until I was older how much that affected me. I remember when I was 12 I would masturbate when my aunt was babysitting me and I would do it with the door open in hopes she would see me.

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